it's almost 4:00 AM and i haven't gone to bed. i'm a little tired, and could probably fall asleep fairly quickly.
it's nice to have the house to myself right now. it's so quiet, and i'm listening to my night time mix, because it is quite appropriate.
i think there must be something in the sun that makes people less emotional. the sun is on the other side of the world right now, and i'm feeling simultaneously glad to be alone, and a little lonely at the same time. it's a strange combination, being technically an introvert, but also a social person. a few years ago, those two things would clash quite noticably. sometimes i wanted to be around people but needed to be alone.
what am i even really talking about right now? i don't think this post has a purpose. i'll probably wake up tomorrow morning afternoon and wonder why i wrote this, and maybe even consider taking it down. why would i take it down? i don't know. i'm not saying anything offensive, or even revealing some deep dark secret to feel embarassed about.
"Waiting in Vain" by Bob Marley has just come up on my mix. the first time i heard this song, it was 2002 i was lying on helen frank's floor. i'd become friends with helen and a gaggle of her friends, some of which i'm very good friends with to this day (emilia and siri). this song makes me a little sad because i was sad when i first heard it. i'd developed what we in the business call a crush on helen frank (did you see how i tried to divert attention from the more personal part of that sentence with the idiom "we in the business?" i am so genius). she'd begun dating this other blah blah blah and blah blah and i was blah blah blah, but you know what? blah blah blah, and sometimes blah blah and that's just how it goes, you know?
i don't know why, but it's easier to talk about things of a personal or deep nature at night. it goes back to the whole sun thing.
do i feel safer in the light, knowing that i can see everything, or safer in the dark, knowing nothing can see me?
more importantly, do i click SAVE or do i click [X]...
click
Posted by john guari at July 25, 2004 03:50 AM